My Visit to Elder Nektary in 1918
By Archpriest Sergius Shchukin
By Archpriest Sergius Shchukin
For the first time I heard about the existence of the Optina elders while I was a student in Moscow. There I became acquainted with young people from a very believing and pious family D. from the city of Kozlov. Two of the brothers and two sisters were studying in Moscow, and one of the brothers was my fellow student. From them I learned that all of them — eight brothers and sisters — were spiritual children of Elder Anatoly of Optina, visited him almost every year, and did nothing without his blessing. They strongly advised me to visit the Optina Hermitage, but the circumstances of student life somehow always prevented me from carrying out this trip. Studies at a special technical educational institution required a great deal of time, and during vacations I always went either home or to student practice. And only after completing the course, already under the Bolsheviks, did circumstances allow me to get to Optina.
In the summer of 1918, when all Russian life had already been shaken to its foundations, before me — as before the whole intelligentsia — stood the question: what to do next? Many categorically refused to enter service in the new Bolshevik institutions, counting on the quick fall of their power. Others awaited foreign intervention and held back. And when private and public institutions were closing, unemployed intellectuals preferred to trade in all sorts of old things or live by selling their belongings rather than enter the service of the Bolsheviks. Finally, such a moment came for me as well, when the institution in which I worked had to close. Of course, having an engineer’s diploma, I could easily find a position, but where exactly? There were many possibilities; my comrades and professors invited me to various newly opening Soviet educational and scientific-technical institutions. But all this somehow attracted me little; I wanted to preserve my inner freedom and strengthen my spiritual life, still so weak and unstable. It was precisely in those days that I began especially to think about the necessity of going to Optina in order to consult with an elder.





.png)


